absurd.ridiculous.

mengapa perlu ber'awak-saye' dgn org yang kite x knal?? mungkin die knal. tp cmne die knal?? ramainye kawan die.
hmm. aku jeles dowh. shit. apsal la aku perlu jeles. i mean,,does she really love me?? well,,i dont think so. again,,shit! it would be nice if she can be real honest with me. just answer the most simple question ; "do u love me?" why cant u answer it?

its not that if u tell me u love me , saye nak kapel ngun awk. saye juz nk tau je. well,,kalau la awk bgtau sye that u still love me,i think i can concentrate more on my studies. awak. tlg laa. help me!! if u tell me u dont love me,,yes,,maybe i will suffer. but at least i know ur real feeling towards me. hmm.

lege siot dpt release kn sume bnde neh. sebbek ade blog. huahua.tu je la. mntk maap la kalau kali ini terlbey jiwang. haha. tenkiu.

a song for her.

Finally , I've found a suitable song for her. The song is Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade. The lyrics is so perfect. It really describes my feeling towards her which i cant express in my own words. Here is the lyrics. Enjoy it!!



The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find.

*to hear this song , just go to my myspace. you will hear it as u open my page. daa~ tenkiu.

daripadeNYA kite dtg. kepadeNYA kite kembali.

Buat pengetahuan semua , ayah firdaus zulkafli baru meninggal dunia. Al-Fatihah buat arwah. Atas dasar kawan dan sesungguhnya menziarahi orang yg meninggal itu merupakan fardu kifayah , aku , muaz , daos(ban) dan juge anas telah pergi ke ruman firdaus. Setibanya di sana , kami dikejutkan apabila kami ternampak puan pengetua dan juga puan koko,,,(aku lupe name dieorang. huhu). Kemudian , kami pergi ke bwh pokok iaitu tmpat yg paling ideal pada waktu itu kerana cuaca agak panas. Kami berjumpa dengan syahir dan basyir. Kami pon bertanye ape2 yg ptot kepada mereka. Barulah kami tau bhwe ayah Firdaus meninggal kerana penyakit paru-paru berair. Tibe-tibe muaz mengajak kami melihat jenazah yang sedang dikafankan. Despite keadaan mase tu yg bersesak-sesak , kiteorang still manage to see proses pengkafanan itu. Aku berase sungguh insaf pada waktu itu.

Setelah keadaan bertambah sesak , kami mule mengundurkan diri. bukan nk balek. tapi aku nk pegi pasang side mirror moto aku. side mirror moto aku kan kene curik. kiteorang pon pg la kedai moto kat matahari heights. setelah proses memasang side mirror selesai , kami bergegas ke rumah firdaus kerana ingin turut serta meyembahyangkan jenazah. Namun hasrat kami musnah kerana setibanya kami di sana , kami lihat orang ramai mula berpusu-pusu menuju ke tanah perkuburan.

Sedarlah kami pada ketika itu bhwe kami telah terlambat. Kami pon pergila ke tanah perkuburan. Sampai-sampai je , kami lihat talkin akan dimulakan. Kami mule mengambil tempat di bwh khemah utk turut menyertai talkin tersebut. Pak imam pon mulelah menjalankan tugas beliau. mse dga talkin tu , seram sejuk aku dibuatnye. insaf gile aku. Sedang pak imam membace talkin , salah seorang wanita yang berdiri tibe2 macam pitam. aku dan muaz bangun utk memberikan ruang supaye wanita itu dpt duduk.

Selesai talkin , kami bersalam2 dgn firdaus dan memintanya agar bersabar. Firdaus mule mengeluarkan air matenye yang aku rase dah lame die simpan. aku mane bley tgok owg nanges ni. otomatik aku pon berase ingin menangis. aku pon mule la pndg2 tmpt len , pndg blkg utk cover air mate yang ingin keluar.

Kepada Firdaus , aku berharap kau bnyak bersabar. Jangan putus asa. Jadikan ini satu sebab utk ko berjaye dgn lebih cemerlang mase spm nnti. Kepada semua , marilah kite sedekahkan Al-Fatihah kepada arwah ayah Firdaus. Al-Fatihah.

the unlucky.

hye. its me. i'm not really in the mood rite now. i dont know what to do. semuenye amat membosankan. emm. sesungguhnya aku kembali ke alam confusion yg selama ini telah mengekori aku ke mana jua aku pergi. ape yg aku merepek cipet nih. hahah. sorry2. emm.

seriously, love is harder than i thought it will be. many will define love in their own ways. but for me, if u ask me what does love mean to me, aku dengan confident nya akan menjawab bhwesenye love is cinta. hahah.xde laa. love for me is the feelin that connect two different person so that they complete each other. did u get what i mean? senang cite, cinta itu adalah suatu perasaan yang meng'connect' due org yg personalitinya berbeda supaye mrk saling melengkapi each other. phm?? bgoslaa jike anda phm ape yg saye cube sampaikan. huahua.

sesungguhnya cuti kali ini agak membosankan kerana aku duk kt umah je. nk kua pon xtau nk pg mne. lgpon bkknya ade dwit nk kua g jenjalan. hahah. aku sgt berharap budak2 neh ade projek yg tak melibatkn dwit so that aku bley join dorg. hahah.

itu je la yang ley aku mengarutkan di pagi yg hening ini. huhu. tenkiu.